The (current) logic of Megan Bender

I would like to consider myself a great philosopher, so here goes with my recent work. I shall title it... the thought process of an exchange student ;)

I think that most of, we all are feeling about the same way.
We all love it here in Denmark, and we all appreciate the time we are spending here, however we all have our own internal battles in which we are fighting; some are just more open about them then most.

We all are in a state in which we are lost, extremely, hoplessly, lost and confused. My good friend Hannah equated it to being deaf, and she is exactly right. No matter what, we have NO IDEA whats going on when danish is being spoken, whether or not we are apart of a group we will always feel 150% left out, because we have no idea whats going on, we just smile and nod and act like everything is great... even though internally we are screaming.
(I wonder how the immigrants in the U.S feel half the time, atleast the danes can speak to us in english)

We all will feel some form of homesickness. Some of us will feel a longing for our traditional food, and some of us just want to be held by our parents, siblings, friends, etc. We all have atleast one thing we miss about home. For me, I just miss the normal life I used to life. Not too much attention, but enough to be pleased, enough attention from friends and family... and it was always genuine attention. I used to be Megan, now I'm Megan... the exchange student from the United States. Someday, hopefully that title will fade to just my friend Megan, maybe Im not giving it enough time... but thats how it goes for about half the year I think.

We all are in this crazy, wild adventure of a rollar coaster together. No one lied when they said the exchange students will probably be your best friends. I think the reason for that is because no mattter our differences in culture or language we all are forieign to the land we're in. We all have absolutly no idea whats going on, but we all know for a fact that the other exchange students feel the same way. They are always there to rely on and they are always there to complain to. We are like one big adopted family, we all will get along regardless of our differences because we all have one thing in common... 1 yr, in Denmark, and 1 yr to make it last, 1 yr of confusion, amazing opportunities, and 1 yr. of friendship. Thats why we are so close. Its inevitable.

Anyways, these are just a few of my thoughts. I have alot more, I just need to sort through in my head. But Denmark is a beautiful place, a place where Im learning who I am. Im so grateful for this year, because its teaching me what kind of person I am... what I can achieve and things I definatly want to stay away from. This country challenges me to look at life in another way, and I love it, I love that I'm being forced to see the world from another set of eyes, because if I only saw through american eyes, what kind of person would I be?
Im learning how to feel sympathy for foreigners, especially when we are being particularly rough on them, I understand what its like to be lost... and not understanding anything... so compassion has rooted itself in me. And most of all Im learning how to take control of my life. Its MY decisions that pave the path to my future, and I know who and what I want to be, and regardless of the struggles Im going to make it happen. Im so grateful I can see this. Im so grateful I've been blessed with this opportunity. Its a heartache and its one of my greatest joys.

I can't wait to see what I will be like in July of 2010 hahah =)