WARING: If you don't like philosophical thinking... you may want to skip this one =)
On July 31st 2010 I said goodbye to my family, my friends, and my home to come to a foreign country to start a "journey of a thousand miles". It was THEE hardest thing I think I've ever done in my life. I guess you can say I had a break down. I realized that I won't be able to hold my daddy's hand, or cuddle with my mommy, or laugh with my sister about something only we would understand for a WHOLE ENTIRE YEAR! I only focused on that aspect, the negative one.
Today, August 9th 2010, I will tell you that I still do miss my family and my home, but I will tell you that it was 150% worth the "breakdown" to see the "beauty" that I'm seeing here in Denmark. The pain and the things I had to give up is only a small fraction of the whole experience. And the thing that keeps me going is that the beauty I have to see is even greater as the year goes on.
This life we live is incredibly short. Its too short to not take any risks, its too short to say "I wish I could've done this or that, and its TOO SHORT to worry about how we will get through the "breakdown".
If there's one thing I want people to get from this blog, is that I'm not writing to just talk about Denmark. I mean that's 90% of my intention, but the other 10% is to motivate YOU to do what's on your heart... maybe its not the easiest thing, but it has so much beauty to it.
Im so happy I'm here in Denmark. I'm so happy that I have support from everyone back home, and I'm so happy I took this opportunity. Even though I will have many "breakdowns", I know that the beauty will be there... to build me up once again.
So PLEASE please, if you're reading this, know that life has to be so much more then what is priority, or what is easiest. Know that your dreams and your aspirations should be what's guiding your life, not your fear. Never let your fear of the "breakdown" keep you from your happiness. Know that, and I believe that you know the key to life, the key to happiness.
"It's never to late to be who ever you want to be.There is no time limit, start whenever you want.You can change or stay the same there are no rules.To this thing we can make the best or the worst of it.I hope you make the best of it.I hope you see things that stop you.I hope you feel things you never felt before.I hope you meet people with a different point of view.I hope you live a life your proud of and if you find that your not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
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Hej Smukke,
ReplyDeleteYour best times and worst times may be separated by just a couple of minutes. This experience, and many others, will make you become YOU. I always look forward to re-meeting the outbounds when they come home. You all turn into such cool people!
But that's well into the future. Concentrate on the "now."
hej hej (which is "hello" in Swedish -- go figure!)
Lynn
True! Tak Lynn =)
ReplyDeleteJa, vi ses, hej hej
(I think thats so adorable, saying hej for farvel! Scandanvian humor maybe? haha)